September 6th is the last time I added an entry to this blog ... where have the weeks gone? The days pass, one by one, almost unnoticed, because that is what days do ... they pass by as I live my life, maintain my home, tutor, do laundry, have fun, laugh and cry, walk the dog, cheer for the NY Giants, celebrate my 30th wedding anniversary -- among other things.
What is on your list?
My list also includes finishing my thesis for graduation from Fairfield University's MFA program in January, 2011. What is the best word to get this idea across? How did I feel at that particular moment? What did I learn? Why did that happen? Questions, seeking answers, finding the perfect phrase, probing deeper to discovery something about me and the world around me -- I have been immersed in the quest. Sometimes frustrated, sometimes angry, often surprised; moved to laughter, to tears, to joy; I achieved moments of revelation and suffered moments of deep fear. I have revealed myself -- to me, to family and friends, and to strangers.
I will meet the deadline for graduation.
For the first time in weeks, I'm not consumed by the work; I'm able to look up from my workspace (which suffers from a serious clutter problem currently) and to think about something other than creating a scene or unpacking an emotion. I have time to read my book club's current selection without feeling guilty that I should be reading a book for my program.
Just as the weather is changing from autumn to early winter, I am ready for a change. I am ready to push back from my desk, tidy up, discard drafts 2-20+ (everything is backed up - twice - on the computer), and look at something new. My final residency is coming up - I will teach, serve as a TA, present a lengthy reading, and if all goes well, graduate with the 26 men and women who have traveled with me the past two years.
